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my horrible gossip girl rewatching marathon MUST STOP LIKE RIGHT NOW. i feel so tired because i watch till like 1am every night, and i could've gotten some sleep today but NO I WENT TO SCHOOL EARLY TO MEET NICOLE AND AMANDA (to do work supposedly) but they weren't there till like almost 9 and i reached at 815 )):

and did not do any work this is so bad i hate school hate work hate organic chem hate stats hate genetic variation hate chi squares and all sorts of nonsense.

random thought. i thnk Anberlin is much better live than the recordings. Stephen Christian's voice is so amazing and when you watch him sing you just want to DIE because he's so good. okay thought over.
and i love tongue tied by faber drive !! it's a nice song.

i met up with melo, phina and kenneth yesterday. they are so cute together i swear. am so happy for her :D cant wait to see her again and it's shirley's birthday so i think i'm seeing her soon too. (: happy birthda shirley, love you. (: even though honestly i dont think she'll see this!! \

I LOVE LYING IN MY ROOM LISTENING TO GOOD SONGS IT'S THE BEST FEELING EVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



everybody live, like it's the last day you will ever see
tell me tell me do you feel the pressure?

today, i finally TRIED to get some work done!! &i've finally tried Astons at the Cathay its really good and i tried macs apple pie + oreo mcflurry but i dont really like apple pie actually so it wasjust okay.

yst melo and i ate butterscotch popcorn from this AMAZING POPCORN SHOP :) i love popcorn! &rented mean girls which i havent seen since like P6 and also lots of stupid vids on youtube.

so i was thinking about some random stuff while doing Alkanes which i didnt finish cause i didnt know how to do it :( and it was so boring. k here goes:

1. the people who invented graham crackers/ ice cream/ oreos/ cheesecake should be given like a Nobel Prize for Most Amazing Foods! and the people behind Ben&Jerry's too.
2. BENANDJERRY'S TURTLE SOUP ICECREAM. it may sound strange but its amazing.
3. iPods should have this thing where you can call it and it'll ring, just like a phone, so that when you lose it it'll be extra easy to find!
4. schools should close when other schools have already closed. E.g. RJC should close since ACJC has already closed.
5. when the school year's over, we should be RELAXING, not given more work to do. when you think about it, holidays are just school days minus getting up early everyday for school and having lessons and stuff. and twice as much homework.
6. my new skirt :)
7. my family who are in japan right now. ):

my strength is almost gone how can I carry on
if I can't find You
and as the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain
"I'm with you"
and as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise
the God who gives and takes away

And I'll praise you in this storm
and I will lift my hands
for You are who You are
no matter where I am
and every tear I've cried
You hold in your hand
You never left my side
and though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm

i love this song ((: it makes me think about God and lots of stuff.

it's okay, even when things are so bad and it seems there's really no hope.
because, when you're at your most vulnerable, when you feel like nobody really cares and you're just all alone, when you're feeling so weary of everything that's ever happened in your life, there is always Jesus, i'm serious, He is always there, and there are always people praying for you even if you don't realise it. and when there is nothing left, there is always Jesus. (((: He'll make things okay.

God doesn't always give, He takes away too. it's not because He's mean, He isn't, but sometimes He has to do it to see if you really have faith in Him, but He never tests us beyond what we can't handle. so if you're going through something really bad now, you must be really strong because He thinks you can handle it (:

i think sometimes i get carried away and get really angry because i think my life is so lousy and so not worth living, but then someone always comes along and reminds me of how much i am loved by God and then i realise how stupid i am, because that alone is enough reason to live. i would like to think i am living my life for Him, but honestly i am not. i remember Him only at certain times of the day, and esp when i need help, when i have nothing else to do but pray.

i guess i should stop thinking about myself ALL THE TIME and also to stop being afraid of other people judging me because, frankly, it doesnt matter if i am conscious or not, you get judged anyway. it's just, how do you say, i find it so hard to open up to people and to really be who i am, i don't know why.

hmmm.

i've just been to some classmates' blogs and lyn posted this awesome song ((: the lyrics are so good i like.

But now you blame yourself
Because you're by yourself
You feel like it's not gonna to change
You're crying on the floor cause you can take no more
Looking for a way to escape

And all this time saying you were fine
And everyone still to blame
Well there you are
You and your broken heart
It's written all over your face

Don't you know
Don't you know that you're beautiful

anyway i've been having a superawesome weekend even though thursday wasnt too good. i felt really tired cos i slept and like 1plus the night before, which was terrible and mentally exhuasting and i felt so bad about something that's been in my life for awhile now, because it used to be good and then it started getting ..bad, i even wanted to just call it quits cos i couldn't take the series of unpleasant stuff that kept happening. but someone told me to read a verse from the bible, which i did, and that helped more than you could've ever imagined ((: i realized that maybe if i stopped focusing so much on myself and instead looked up to God i wouldn't have gotten so upset?? idk okay but everything got put into perspective, so thank you ((: i think everyone should read the bible when they're feeling down, because it gives you hope like nothing else can, really.

so on thurs i went home to sleep instead of going to ecp with my class, but i guess the sleep i got was worth it (((: i've been sleeping so much nowadays, and functioning so much better because of that much sleep. and we sorted out the stuff that happened the night before and things are so much better now. i'm really happy now!

i almost died at labrador shore on friday, but for my stupid group item i stood on the shore and had seaweed tangle up in my toes and i couldnt scream i was filming the vid ))): bad exp i tell you )): i met sbpp before dinner havent seen her since my birthday so i was rly happy!!!!! saw lots of rj people when i had dinner with lennie and then we went to a war memorial at city hall because it was right outside raffles city and i was like HEY WHATS THAT WHITE THING! it's a nice place to sit and talk, we went right inside the white thing which is just a white square of space with a vase in the middle ((: i've never been to a war memorial before hehheh.

i went to lyn's house yst with bl and nic it was so fun!! her dog buster is the cutest but it also grunts alot like a pig for some reason, and her maid is such a good cook i wish mine had better cooking skills. after dinner we sat in her room till like ten plus talking and it was awesome. ((: love them loads really really do!

OP SOON )): and i havent done any work since, i cant even remember! ): this is such a long post and so boring. i just feel like posting cos suddenly i know lots of people who are reularly updating their blogs and er, i just felt like doing it too. okay stupid reason. i'm just bored. after lunch i came home and slept again. now i'm headachey and abit confused about whether i should do work. )): melo tmr. i forsee myself eating alot!

i found this, and i really liked it.

this weekend has been really good! on friday, we were supposed to go to the zoo but it rained so we decided to cook instead, for no reason at all. went to the supermarket and of all things, brought back a whole chicken and hairy crabs and loads of potatos. so we had potato salad and chicken and hairy crabs for lunch and cooked it ALL BY OURSELVES! :D okay the maid helped abit. but still. oh and i brought justine cake at night ((: it was her and christine's bday ((:

yesterday i went for class outing, minus half the class. ): too bad lyn's in HK and amanda's in msia or it wouldve been kind of more fun and stuff cos like me nicole vera bailu and jo were the only girls. so like me and nic stuck together cos the other girls are like okay but i dohnt really talk to them in class usually whoops haha and when the other girls played soccer w the guys (i dont like soccer cant play it haha) me &nic SWAM OVER TO THE OTHER ISLAND!! damn tiring k and we kept screaming cos there was so much seaweed but it was super fun ((: then we sat on the sand of the island till sunset and talked alot then we swam back to join the class. had dinner outside carl's junior then camwhored the guys are so crazy.

yup :) tmr i'm gonna watch Fame!

i miss melo and sancia and phina alot, because we were supp to meet but we couldnt. ): pw )):
I'M SEEING MELO THIS WEEKEND THOUGH SANCIA DO YOU WANT TO COME ((:

i talked to sam today.
(happy)

some people are just so busy. not that i blame them of course. it just sucks all the same.

ive been on mega movie marathon. :D

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY SANCIA YOU ARE WONDERFUL AND ILY :D

today was a cold day but i had a gray woolly pullover so i was fine and happy love it when it rains :D
went library and did absolutely nothing it was just me/ lyn/ ryan talking &we shall go play tennis sometime.

these days i study in school and try to study at home (studying at home usually fails i spend half my life at home on the phone) and then i go for touch (PT's killing me) and oh i eat damn alot!! :D haha rj food is goood

i can get rly tired and sometimes i feel lost(?) but there's alot to be thankful for right now :)

CLASS CAMP @ MACRITCHIE walked 10.5k in the rain
CLASS PARTY @ LYN'S HOUSE super high in the pool om chi chi om chi hahahahahaha we all laugh until cannot laugh anymore

&happy birthday chuan hong BBBBBBLP and rohan :D

luv 10S03G we r the best class ever